Watch on Soap2day. After her sister's suicide, filmmaker Marieke Widlak was left feeling powerless. Had she expressed enough appreciation to her sister? In the film Marieke searches for answers with her father, mother and other sister. After her sister's suicide, filmmaker Marieke Widlak was left feeling powerless. Had she expressed enough appreciation to her sister? In the film Marieke searches for answers with her father, mother and other sister. 'Now or Never Again' is an ode to expressing loving appreciation.